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 Oct 18, 2010 @ 4:56 PM | LinkHalf Boyfriend ♥ What comes first to your mind when I say "Half Boyfriend"? A mixed blood guy? Or a half guy but half girl? Or maybe a boyfriend with only one side? Or maybe a boyfriend half time, but another time only a friend? The last one might be the right answer for me. Maybe not "only a friend" but a "part time boyfriend". One time he can be my boyfriend, but then we'll act just like friends, closer friends, cousins maybe... Last time I was watching Vampires Suck with him in my room, my daddy caught us hugging (only hugging!). He didn't want to show the relationship, but then he would put his head on my leap when everybody (my family) was around. He just moved to Bali like, for some weeks. His school has started as well, and sometimes I find it hard to see him. Yes, he's got a cellphone, but he never calls me, or even texts me. Then why did he exchange numbers with me? I miss him like crazy now ♥ Although whenever we meet, it's only by the chance if my mom goes there to see his mom. I don't know how to see him by my own will. I know he won't just pop in front of my house, since it's like 30 mins far from his house to my house (which costs taxicab a lot!). But it's also impossible for him to call me and ask me to come there. Yet, I don't know how to get there. Cars in my house are most times unavailable! I haven't seen him in 4 days, and I'm going crazy now. I just want to see him, but he never calls me. I want to call him, but I'm afraid he'd ignore me (half boyfriend, remember?). For the first time I wish I could ride bike, so I could visit him now, no matter what. This happened when we were heading to my friend's party... Him : "So, what if you walk in and say that I'm your boyfriend?" Me : "Okay." *grabs his hand* Him : "Or... What if you walk in and say that I'm your cousin?" Me : "Okay then..." *releases his hands* Him : "What if you say that I'm your half boyfriend? Like one time I'm your boyfriend, then another time I'm your cousin?" Me : *just simply grabs his hand again* Call me? Call me? Text me? Text me? Most times I wonder... What kind of HALF boyfriend are you? You never call me and you never text me. Then it pops up again. He never calls me and he never texts me? He's just a normal HALF boyfriend who definitely acts like one. I'm sad :'( I miss him. Him : "Do you love me?" Me : "You've asked me that question before." Him : "Just answer yes or no!" Me : "Yes!" Him : "Why? I don't get why you love me, because I think in the end I'm only gonna break your heart." Me : "Why?" Him : "Because I'm not the right guy! I'm not a good guy. Tell me how many percents do you love me?" Me : "Mmm... 60." Him : "60!?" Me : "Yes. You told me not to be 100% with a guy, so I learnt, then I love you 60." Him : "Do you remember when I was sick?" Me : "When you were sick? I mean like, last time you came here, or like 2 years ago?" Him : "2 years ago." Me : "Oh, what's with that?" Him : "You took care of me, and then you hugged me, although I hadn't taken a bath, I stunk." Me : "Yeah?" Him : "That was the first time a girl took care of me like that. And I don't know if I can that much of love. I love you like... 58%." Me : "58!?" Him : "Okay, 72%." Me : "72..." Him : "So, when my school starts, are you gonna date one of my classmates?" Me : "No, why? You want me to?" Him : "Maybe that's better for you. I'm not a good guy for you. I can't take love that much from you. There are things I want to change from me, I keep on telling myself to change, but I never do that." Me : "Why? Why don't you try?" Him : "Yeah, maybe someday. I want you to find someone else, who deserves your love." Me : "Why? Okay if that's what you want!" *I was getting angry* Him : "That's not what I want! But that's what I think is better for you!" Me : "No! Are you seriously thinking there's better person that you are!? No!" Him : "Yes!" Me : "No!" Him : "Yes!" Me : "No! No! No! Okay if that's what you want! I'm going to find someone else"! Him : "That's not what I want! That's what I think is better for you! Of course if you find someone else I'll be 100% jealous. But I think that's better for you." Me : "No." Him : "So remember, if another time I try to hug or kiss you again, you remind me, 'Giorgio, remember what you say the other night'." *But then he hugged me again... Me : "You said no hug?" Him : "Hugging is fine. As cousins." Me : "Okay, you can ask me to find another person, but I will never ever do that. If you ask me to find someone else, then I won't. If you tell me to stay with you... I won't too." *He frowned at me* Me : *Giggles* "No, yes. I will." And this happened the last time... Him : "I can't think how slutty those French girls in my class are..." Me : "What? Are you going to find someone else?" Him : "You want me to?" Me : "Of course not!" Him : "Okay then, I won't. Will you?" Me : "No." Wow. My life is so dramatic. Labels: love back to top |